Started the year 2018 on a really sad note. I lost a good friend who was a cousin. Sometimes I am soaked in emotions, trying to understand why he had to leave so soon.I then recover by remembering the good note and that is; he left us an exact copy of him, 5 months fresh. The little baby has since grown into a fine 1 year and 5 months, a very cute boy. These days, I do no longer frown that he left, but I smile that he lived.
So, this was the year that I had to trust God for everything, every step of the way. Had to make major decisions. Still making them anyway because I am breathing. In 2018, I was getting to the edge. I could feel life literary trickling out my little (heart). Sometimes I got up in the morning and it was like a surprise. like one of those oops moments! you know when you get into the elevator, you get lost in thoughts and before you know it, the top floor is here and you're expected to jump off and keep walking to the office?
It was hard to convince myself that everything was working perfect! Way harder than I thought in the previous year when I left formal employment. My heart grew bigger and emptier. It felt like I walked around carrying a 15kg bag inside my... is it left part of the chest where the physical heart organ resides? I think I was stressed. No! I am not thinking, I was literary stressed.
I forgot about my prayer life. I just could not pray. In fact, I was unconsciously kept by other people's prayers for me. A sad confession it is especially for a christian but it is true. I now believe more, the scripture that says (the prayers of the saints availeth much) because those prayers by other believers saved me. I was drifting afloat on the rough waters in huge water bodies, like the debris of an aircraft wing that's miraculously held there as evidence to track a lost plane. Is that even comparable? well. I do not know...but there is a point I guess....that the prayers helped me a great deal!
Then came the end of the year, Christmas festive season and all....some friends were going on vacations. To my surprise, I seemed to pity than envy most of them. Stop it with the jealousy thoughts ... haha. Okay I digress. sorry.
I have always wanted to travel. My good friends, know that I am an indoor person, but I take every chance within my reach and means to travel. Why? because you meet people, learn things and personally, I see God in new environments. I want to look around and see HIS awesome mighty works in rocks, rivers, lakes, and valleys. Hope I will one day travel out of Africa. Amen.
So this year, I was in a state, and I knew that if there is something I needed too badly to get fixed, is my relationship with God. Even in my stress, I knew HE would heal my heart, body, and soul.
I could not point a thing that caused the serious veering, but I knew i needed a fixing.
I went to my church's convention. We usually have a three-days-meetings in a facility where you can board or otherwise. It was everything I needed and beyond. I needed God to heal me and revive me and just remind me I am HIS and HE walks with me every day.
God works in wonders. Maybe you're sick, and HE uses a pastor to preach divine healing to you. In this season, HE inspired the preacher to talk about the joy of a Christian. It is in the Lord.
My take home was that when that Joy fades, you leave your prayer life and your spirit dies. This was my exact diagnosis! My prescription; wake up, read a chapter, listen to God's word, and pray more often. This will keep Satan and HIS ideas away from your mind. To Christians, James chapter 4;7-8 tells us to (submit yourselves therefore to God. Resists the devil, and he will flee from you. 8. Draw nigh to God and he will draw nigh to you....). What is a conclusive summary! No need to add anything.
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